Me... JuSt Me....

2007-03-13T13:13:00.000+08:00

A new June~

Just came back from my hair cut at Kelly Hairdresser, which located near my house. Hee... Now i got new hair style liao... From a very feminine long hair to a much more non-feminine short hair.. Abit heartache after Mabel show me where she had cut... Now my longest strand of hair is about 5 cm below my shoulder.. sob... And my rebonded hair is gone.. Wasted hundred over dollars... But, i never regret that i let her cut my hair.. Heex.. Afterall, it's nice!!.. No longer makes me looks so tired:) happy.. And can style it also... heex... So maybe get prepare to see a new JUNE!!! Hooray~~

2007-03-03T14:26:00.000+08:00

Had been MIA for around 1-2months? haha..

Holiday started liao.. And i havent find a job.. how how lei? haiz.. Abit lazy to work:P

Yea.. Next Tuesday going for the orientation camp le.. Scare scare.. But i must learn!! I must learn to be daring de.. Cannot always so so timid de.. Just hope i don't "Qie Chang" last minute.. haha...

Hee.. End here le.
Buai.. may MIA again liao.. haha...

2007-01-25T19:14:00.000+08:00

I'M BACK!!

Today's weather is good... Nice and cooling... Love it... Hope it remain the temperature same forever... So that my neck won't be itch.. hehe..

Anyone miss me? Surely miss me de right??

I had not been blogging or onlining for almost 1 month le.. Why?? Something was happening with my connection, which i could not get online. That's why i have not been updating here.. So, i try to update it if i can since my WLM is back to normal... Pray hard that it don't go crazy anymore.. Otherwise i'll also go crazy de.. Hehez..

I'm late for school today... I forgot to set my alarm clock.. Thank god that i can wake up at 7:30. I Jumped up, ran to bath and was out at 7:50... Took bus and train and reached school at 8:30... I'm so used to take bus now le which i hate to take train... Which sometimes it's squeezy and smelly... Yucks... and i was so blur today... Forgot that today's Jap lesson is at 5th floor and go to 4th floor class... Haiz... Blur blur.... Lucky i make it to the role play.. Tried not to be nervous, but failed... Still forgot what to say and pause for so long...

After that went for the next lesson.. Mic was not here today(due to her back pain), feel so boring... cos, i cannot disturb her.. haha... Then C&I lecture den school ended... Jes so bad.. Promise me to come to school today and ended up "fang wo fei ji". And i don't want so early go home, so i intended to walk back home from school.. But i cannot make it.. At the 3rd stop, i'm feeling giddy. So i sat in the bus stop and wait for bus to Yishun. I look at the floor and feel that my surrounding was shaking as if i'm in the boat(no worries, not earthquake). I'm so afraid that i may faint in the bus stop.. Then the bus came, i board.

Feel so hungry and feel like eating something light.. First food come to my mind was Kway Teow Soup.. So, i alight at Yishun, change 969 and head to woodlands and find my daddy.. The only fishball noodle i dare to eat is my daddy one.. Only his soup and ingredient can let my appetite be good... And surely got extra ingredient de.. hehez... I ate 1 bowl of fishball noodle(kway teow soup with sambal chili,fishball,fishcake,mince pork and egg), and 1 veri small bowl of lor mee(mee,ngo hiang,clam and pig liver). haha... special?? That's why i love to eat daddy's de.. Cos i can add other ingredient to eat.. After that took bus home with daddy...

Hehe... That all about today.. Happy? Finally blog le... Hehe...

Ps:Wk and SL, there's no such person.. hehe... don't think too much le.. If really got something that i haven say, i'll post it on blog de.. ok?? hehe...

2007-01-03T20:53:00.000+08:00

All gone....

Just now i was typing so hard to post a long post.. haiz... and my explorer gone crazy... my posts are gone.. haiz.... maybe it's not supposed to post ba... forget it... just lazy to re-type.... maybe will update more few days later ba... hehe...

2006-12-26T10:18:00.000+08:00

Christmas celebration

Yesterday is christmas.. Meet Mic, HL,Yj, Del, GJ, YX and Terry out for christmas celebration... Went to "Ri Ben Chun"(a Japanese restaurant) at Tampines to eat our dinner... I love there very much.. The food there quite nice de,though it was expensive... After finished our dinner,we exchange gift... Yx and Terry exchange first, den follow by i give GJ, GJ give YJ... Mic and HL exchange at bus interchange.. Hehe... Thank you YJ.... I love your gift.. Thank you...hehe... and GJ de chocolate, HL de bear bear and chocolate.. Hehe.. Thanks all.. hehe...

Omg.. I shall end here le.. Didn't realise i'm late.. Shall continue this post tomorrow or at night... and sisi... Happy Birthday.... Enjoy~~

2006-12-24T12:36:00.000+08:00

Christmas eve...

Today Christmas eve liao.. And i suppose almost all my friend will go to town to spend their chirtmas eve tonight, playing like crazy ba.. haha... Wish everybody will enjoy!! haha... Everybody is playing tonight but i choose to stay at home playing with my naughty nephew.. hehe.. Cos' i hate crowd.. Pushing and pushing... It's not nobody didn't ask me out to town.. It's i rejected.. hehe... Si sorry.. haha...

Tommorrow will be meeting a group of friends to celebrate christmas... This year is the first time that i celebrate Christmas with friends.. I think.. haha.. Don't laugh at me ar.. hehez.. And will be eating dinner and exchanging presents.. Yippee.. First time ba.. Don't know who give it me... Hehe.. But thanks here first.. haha.. I don't know that this somebody who will take my present should laugh or cry.. Cos' this is the best present i can give for this person.. Hehe.. So, hope this whoever may like it:)

Ok... i shall end here and start doing my projects le.. Otherwise i may not be able to complete it by this holidays lei...

MERRY CHRITMAS TO ALL...

AND HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SISI TODAY FIRST.. Will wish you happy birthday again on tuesday.. hehez

2006-12-22T17:43:00.000+08:00

Movie again...

Yesterday went to watch Curse of the Golden Flower... Starring by Lun Lun, Chow Run Fa and Gong Li... Omg.. Ah Lun is shuai de lor... hehe:P But, i don't really like some parts of this show.. Because it involve alot of killing and fighting.. The part where Ah Lun is fighting with his troop, i was holding my jacket very tightly.. So cruesome to me... And Mic, who was sitting beside me yesterday, sobbing at that part.. haha... Sorry mic, i didn't mean to laugh but it's really very funny.. hehe:P

But watching this show de people were so wierd yesterday... Such a serious de show, not a comedy, still got people laughing sia.. haha.. Maybe the first prince de acting skills very funny.. haha... Yesterday i first time watch movie so serious that my eye sore and tears came out( not because i'm crying.. It's due to the soring of my eyes:P).. haha...
After that we went to candy empire to buy chocolate... Yippee.. All of THEM bought the yummiest chocolate.. Sadly, i bought the wierdy and the worse chocolate.. haiz.. Threw away the whole bar after eating only one mouthful:( It's cadbury cherry chocolate.. It tast so disgusting.. The filling is not only cherries, but also with coconut... OMG... Very disgusting... Think le also puking.. hehe:) Regreted for being so greedy, for buying the king size one... haiz...

I LOVE CURSE OF THE GOLDEN FLOWER overall... hehez..

Today is Tang Yuan Jie... Wish everybody happyz... hehe.. From morning till now, i think i have ate around 4-5bowls liao.. Haiz.. Fat le fat le.... Just realise that for the next few days, will be very busy.. Which i can't even celebrate Si de birthday on tuesday le.. Haiz... Not worth to be their friends.. Even Jo's de birthday i also didn't celebrate with them... I still owe her a present... haiz... I also owe HL and Del presents... omg...

To sisi...
Si, i may not be attending your birthday celebration on tuesday le.. Sorry.. Enjoy yourself:) Less one me never mind one la.. haha... Since you may have alot of other friends celebrate with you le.. hehe:P Enjoy!!! And wish you Happy Birthday here first:)

2006-12-20T20:14:00.000+08:00

What is the correct way??

Just now, as i was walking to coffee shop to buy dinner, something came into my mind which give me an idea what should i blog now...

This is what i'm thinking just now.....

Is it that most of the things we do or decision we made, we must take other people's feeling into consideration first? Like will we hurt or harm other people after this decision we made or the things we have done? Some people may think that, "why should our decision be affected by how people may feel or think of us? We should do what we feel is good for us.." But, if we don't care about how people will feel, we might hurt or harm them... Which, is not very nice for others... Maybe, i feel this way because i have not went through enough, and don't know how outside world is like... Cruel? Kindness? Hypocrisy? I don't know... The world outside is really difficult to understand.. I rather be a kids, which they'll be ignorant about all this troubles.. But saddening.. Everyone has to go through all this.. So, i still have to face it.. But, what should we think of first when we are doing things or making decision? Think of others first? Or think of what should be the best for us? I really don't know... Last time, i got ask my sister.. She said, we should confirm that decision as long as we know that after this decision we made, will not get scolded or hurt anyone... But, how is that possible? If we really made a decision which will not get reprimanded or hurt people, this decision we made might not give us happiness...On the other hand, if we made a decision which give us happiness, it definitely will hurt or get scolded by people.. So, what exactly is the right thing to think when making right decision which won't harm anyone?? I'm very afraid of the decision i made will hurt anyone... I rather i'll be the one getting hurt than seeing anyone feeling uncomfortable... But in the end, i suffer... I became the one who really feel very.... very 'xin ku'... It's mentally torture for me.. And, i don't know who to talk to, to solve the problem i'm facing... And, all this happening, i don't know how to say... Now, i'm trying to solve, to face this problem myself.. Hope i'll pass this ordeal.. Haha.. I think i'm exaggerating it le.. But, after saying what i'm feeling now, i've feel better... I'm so wierd... I could actually feel so frustrated for this.. haha.. Dumb.... Because this very thing i face now is not really a big problem.. It just that i've not been through all this, and feel sort of not used to these changes.. Haha.. Maybe i'm that 'lao gu ban', cannot adapt to new things...haha...

2006-12-20T14:25:00.000+08:00

What Should I Post??

Just browsing through blogs and just realise that i have not update here more than a week!! Omg... 'Blogy', you must be hungry now le... Okok.. I'll feed you now....

But... I don't know what should i blog... Alot of things happening these few days, but i don't know how to put them in words... I only know that i feel so confused and i don't know what i going to do... Feel so.... feel so.... feel so.... haiz... i also don't how to say... Happy or sad or confuse? I think i most probably is confuse..... A wrong decision can really affect your mood... haiz... No choice, what's done is done... Cannot think back le... Just have to continue everything and be happy... Smile:D... Haiz...只要笑一笑沒什麼事過不了...

This few days really very sad... Mummy keep scolding me... haiz... No mood le... haiz....

2006-12-09T20:27:00.000+08:00

A last post before common test..

Just realise that i have not been updating my blog for days.. So intend to write some craps... hehe... Yesterday i bought 400G of chocolate!! It's malteres... Haha... This week i really ate alot of chocolate.. At least every day 2.. Since last Sunday... Haiz... And i got the 'present' for eating chocolates... 1. Pimples.. 2.tummy... sad.... My craving for chocolate is back again... No worries... i've intended to go jogging everyday after common test, during the 2 weeks break.. Hehe... Mic, i booked you le huh... We must shed of weight ok.. Hehe...

Shall continue further blog post next thursday... hehe...

2006-12-03T13:53:00.001+08:00

Yesterday’s happening

Meet a friend to watch Happy Feet at VivoCity(GV max) yesterday. Wow.. Yesterday was so “ren san ren hai”… So crowded.. Happy Feet started at 1.20pm and we went in 1.40pm.. haiz.. missed 20 min… Never mind… Happy Feet indeed contained some frightening scene(according from the description that GV made).. haha.. The frightening part was when the seal(if I didn’t get the name wrongly:P) suddenly popped up infront of Bobo(the cute cute penguin)..This was the part that I was shocked and jumped up… Omg…I’m crazy right? Haha… Then, while watching the show, I’m wanted to go to the toilet very badly… But I cannot go… Cos we sat in the second row, and need to walk very long way before we could reach outside… So no choice, I’ve to “ren zhu”.. Haha… After the show ended, we walked out of the theatre.. OMG… The path was so small… Very squeezy… I have to walk very near to the wall.. haiz… Maybe my friend stand too near to my side le.. therefore I’ll have such limited space…

Finally, we’ve reached the toilet… Omg… So packed… Have to ‘Q’ the long ‘Q’.. I’m so tooted yesterday… the tap was sensor de and I thought it’s pressed one.. and I kept pressing the tap and water didn’t come out.. Haiz… So stupid…

Overall, the show is very nice… It’s very cute… For the sake of preventing the Penguin to extinct, we should eat lesser fish…Ok?? Hehe:)

After that, we went to food republic( if I didn’t remember wrongly) eat.. I ordered Udon laksa… You guess how much it cost? Omg… $6.90.. I thought it’s less than $5 and I only took out $6.. Haiz… So X… Nevermind, once in a while only…

Then we went to The Cocoa Tress… haha.. We bought 20 Chocolates… Hehe.. Bad bad:) Spent $10 for it:P After that we went shopping until 9pm and went home.. hehe…Loves chocolates……

2006-11-30T22:14:00.001+08:00

Sinned

Today is really not my day.. Everything doesn't seem to goes well for me.. Can say that my leg was injured after the serious leg cramp 2 nights ago.. Haiz.. cannot walk properly.. Have to limp when walking stairs... haiz... tie3 guai3 li3... haha... Then got splatted by oil.. haiz.. And the 'lizard' accident.... haiz... Bad day... Just a bad day.. Should go pray pray one day liao.. haha...
Go to school as usual.. Then went to FJ for lunch.. Ke Lian de mic, her slipper was "confiscated" by WK.. Walked outside Fj one leg bare-footed...Then went to WSS to continue with my electronic dual dice.. Aimed to finish connecting the circuit by today.. But failed.. haha.. Instead, i and Mic eat cadbury chocolate secretly.. As if we've done something wrong.. haha..Then kpo de Wk and SL wanna know, keep 'fan' us to tell them... Haiz... mic and i revealed something then they took my bag and search for it... They Saw the chocolate... and something... haiz... embarassed... hehe...After that, i continued with my project... so serious... still hoping to finished it by today.. But, i'm too slow to finish it... So, i shall continue it after common test ba.. hehe...
After Wss, we went home.. On my way home, I'm thinking about something and did not notice what's on the floor.. I walked and walked and walked... Opps.... Almost fall!! Lucky, i'm able to balance myself.. So i turned and looked what causing me to fall... OMG...... I saw something slimy, flated and wriggling on the floor... OMG...... Disgusted..... IT"S LIZARD!!!!!!!!! A "LIZARD PRATA"!!! I've killed a lizard... SINFUL... SO SINFUL... "a mi tuo fo" I didn't mean to step on it.... Haiz... Why must it die because of my carelessnes... Haiz... I've killed a living thing... Sinful....I reached home and told my dad about it... He said it's not my fault... It is its time to go to its world.. I'm just helping it... I also told my friend about it... He also said it's fated for it to die this way... and ask me not to blame myself... Haiz... How is it possible... If it's not my carelessness, it will not die.. Sinful... Just hope that its family don't revenge for it... Otherwise i'm dead.. haiz...
Just have to admit that i'm having an UNLUCKY DAY~~

2006-11-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

BOrinG

Just confirm with friend to watch Happy Feet this sat.. Haiz... Feel kinda wierd... Don't dare to go.. But since i've promised, then go... Must not say one thing, do another thing... Not good... But must try go out with new friends... Cannot always limit myself with only these few friends... Must learn to go out with friends... I must improve myself de... Cannot always stays this way.... haha... So this sat, busy... haiz... Vexed...

2006-11-28T21:55:00.000+08:00

Ignored

Just finished reading something... Feel very depressed.. I just hope that they'll forget me... Ignore my existence... Since my exixtence=nothing/no difference... Maybe feel so not confident.. I know for everything to happen, it's caused by me.. Or 'built' up by me.. It's not something i want it to happen.. But since it had happened, I hope all the memories will be erased.. Though this may not matters them, but, it matters to me... Haiz.. Cos' i don't want them to remember my existence... maybe by this way, i'll feel better...(hope so)...

2006-11-28T21:13:00.000+08:00

Pasar Malam

As usual, went to school and hoped lessons will end earlier.. hehe:P But today my hair got 'tortured' by wk and loon.. haiz... My hair spoilt le la... They put so much wax and so violent to my hair... haiz... I don't want them to be my hairstylist(if they gets to be one day).. hahah... Otherwise my hair will die in their hands.. Lucky, i just washed my hair cleaned, and treated... Now my hair is quite soft le.. hehe:P And i hate centre parting... Very ugly... yucks.. Don't do that again... haha..

Then after school, i and mic went to Pasam Malam. And i bought steamed peanut, tapioca cake and tea egg... Total spent:$2.50(intended to spend $2 only de) ... I can't control my money these few days... Yesterday also overspent my money.. haiz... Not only cannot control my money, i also cannot control my diet... haha... Keep eating and eating... haiz.... 'Puberty' age.... haha...
But don't worry... I'll control de... From tml onwards... I try to control ok? (ps: haiz... I hope so... hope i can control) Mic... i'll control de... tml i won't go pasar malam again le... hehe... wanna bet?? But dun "sia" me.. okok?? hehe:P

2006-11-25T17:35:00.000+08:00

Apologise

Just now, around 1.30pm, Sisi called me and asked me to go out with her, jo and juz... Haiz... Bad Bad me.. I rejected her 'invitation'.. Sorry Si,Jo and juz. Don't angry me... hehe... I really lazy to go out today... Will try to ask you all out... okok... try only huh... hehe:)

2006-11-25T17:14:00.000+08:00

My New Blog Skin!!

Is my new blog skin nice?? i spend for about 5 hours to make this very simple skin... Such a failure.. haha.. But at least i've changed the skin... Which look more mature than the previous one.. haha... But very sad... I forget the passwaord to log in to the cbox and have to create a new one.. haiz... all previous tag message is gone... sad....

Must listen to the songs i put ok? hahaha... so nice... hehe...

Ok.. Shall just end here le... Wanna rest le... My eyes tired after looking at the screen for 5 hrs... haha... remember to tag!!!

2006-11-24T21:37:00.000+08:00

Bad post

Today, after 1010 lab, we skipped 1222 lecture and went to j8 to watch FLUSHED AWAY. OMG.... It's nice!! The slugs are cute... I love the way they sing... haha... cute cute cute...

Haiz... broke le... I've spent more than $50(<$70) this week... The worse thing is, i don't know what i've spent on!! The money just 'disappeared' like that... Haiz... This month really used up alot of money... Just recieved my bill... Shocked! i used 600++/500 msg... haiz... have to pay $5++ more... die le la.... I'm worried for this coming bill... if i'm not wrong, i've used 200 msg less than a week.... sianz...

ok... stop here le... somebody is pestering me to shut down my com... haha... cos she wanna sleep le... that's is none other than my sis... haiz....

2006-11-23T22:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY!!! YIPEE...

Yeah... Brother is back from Australia for Army Training.. Yeah...
I miss him alot.. Cos It has been a long time that i last seen him... He has become fitter and tanned than before... Shuai ge eh.. haha.. My bro veri handsome one lei... haha... Yeah... Must celebrate for his return from Australia.. hehehe....

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Extra...
Haiz.. i think i've got amnesia... I wanted to blog about today and yet, i can't remember what has happen today.. haiz... i only remember yj, hl,del, mic and i chatted at coffee bean and laughed about somethings... haiz... i'm dead... i'm still young and my memories failed.. haiz... pathetic... hehe...

2006-11-21T23:11:00.000+08:00

Idiot Post..

I really shouldn't start my day wrong... I feel so so so idiot!! So so so unhappy today... No one provoke me... It's me, provoke myself... Forget it... Just give up in everything... Forget everything... But, it's not easy at all!! Friends should forget me... Treat it as there's no me.. I'm such a failure to be someone..

OMG!!! What happen to you, June?? Why? What happened?? Don't feel so bad... Haiz.... Changes... I hate changes!

2006-11-21T21:43:00.000+08:00

Today...

This morning, when i took bus to school, i saw this ah ma alighted the same bus as me.. She's old and weak, so she walked very slowly. She was accompanied by a indonesia maid. Which both of them speak a complete different language.. How are they going to communicate? Why did i say so? As the maid was paying the fare via coin, the bus driver asked her where they wanna go.. Saddening, i think the maid does not know where is the ah ma wanna go. She wanted to ask the ah ma.. But she does not know how to speak her language. So, the maid asked a uncle to translate for her... I was thinking, why this ah ma is accompanied by maid? Why not her children? Is it that she does not have one? Is it that Her children don't want her? Is it that her children are too busy to accompany her? Will my parents be the same as her when they grow old? Will i have time for my parents in the future? Or, do i have the longer live to take care of them? What if i leave earilier than them? Haiz... Forgot to add something... While the ah ma is taking out money to pay for the fare, i saw her taking out alot of $50 in her hand.. I'm so worried that some baddies saw it and might rob her.. She's old. She does not have the strength to fight back... Haiz...

I alighted bus and walked towards school... OMG!! I hate sun out of sudden... Maybe i've heard from sis that sun will cause freckles.. I was so afriad that i'll have it.. No! I don't want..

Btw, what happening to me? Why am i getting more and more self-conscious? I asked mic.. She say it's good.. Means i've grown up le... But, i'm really not used to it.. It's not me... From hating putting on make-up to love putting on make-up... Damn it... I hate such changes... Though it look good... Haiz... I want to be baby... Can i be one? Haiz... I can't go back to the past.. So how? admit it ba... Just carry on and take good care of my face ba.. haiz... Ultimately, i must grow up one day de right? Accept the facts....

2006-11-19T23:46:00.000+08:00

DISGUSTED!!

Today, mummy, sis and me went to tampines to shop for baby's shoe.. Once i reach there, i needed toilet urgently. so i went in to a coffee shop and use it's toilet... Waited outside for awhile and a auntie come out. Then i faster go in and close the door... OMG!!!! when i turned around, you know what i saw... It so damn er xin... Shit were all around the toilet bowl.... PUKE!!!!!!!!!!!! I faster run out of the toilet feeling totally, 100% disgusting... Haiz... Lucky i'm a type of person who will look before i sit... Otherwise i dunno how long will i going to take to clear up the mess... omg....

2006-11-19T23:06:00.000+08:00

Lazy...

I'm so lazy to post my trip to ubin yesterday le... Cos, i dunno how to say about the whole trip:P

I only know that my muscle ache, and my shoulders tanned until very uneven!! so ugly... haiz.. regret wearing that shirt.. haiz...

Overall, about the trip, it's fun and tiring... Hope to have another trip there, to eat!! haha...

2006-11-17T18:16:00.000+08:00

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It has been the long time i last post le... Haiz...

This week, i'm really not myself.. Keep talking and playing... Maybe my cheerful soul came back to me.. haha... But it's leaving soon le... It just left me... My muumy scares it away.. She shouted at me.. For no reason... I just don't understand what is she trying to say and she got frustrated... Haiz... She not scolding me, it's only i'm not 'fu qi' that she shouted at me suddenly! haiz... And this was how my cheerful soul left me....

Maybe it will not come back le... And again, i may be keeping quiet from next minute onwards... I really hope it won't leave me... I like this type of me... Though it's quite noisy.. hehe...
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Over-used my message!!

I'm so worried that my bill will shoot up for this month... If i'm not wrong, I've sent almost 200 message in 5-6 days... OMG!!! So worried sia...... Maybe tommorow i'll recieved my bill le... Hope it'll faster send to me.... So that i'll have 500 more message to use.....
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My Cheek!!!

My cheek got pinch by loon and wk today... hurmp.... ke lian de me.... They just jealous me for having such a cute cheek... (puke) hahahaha...... WK, Loon, don't jealous me le la... it'll not do you good de.. opps........:P
hahaha...

2006-11-09T21:36:00.000+08:00

v.v Bad day v.v

Feeling very guilty for the whole day.. Cos' i didn't help much in the project. And, unable to go out to teach friends maths(cos my eye swollen:( ).

Once i know i'm in the wrong, i always can't help feeling guilty and start to reproach myself... I really don't like myself, for not allowing myself to get involve in anything. There's a saying, "Learn from your mistake". It's a simple sentence, yet i can't learn from it... i just repeat the mistake... I did remind myself about it. But... haiz... Maybe it's a way that i'm brought up from?? haiz.... Too pampered le ba..... Why am i the youngest, who always received love from family? They protect me which make me can't learn to protect and care for others... Maybe, this is so call self-centered ba... haiz~~

I'm so unlucky today.... Just now, while i'm waiting for bus, my hand was "corrupted" by a smelly bug.. It's really damn smelly... Just like the smell of dead fish!!!! YucKs!!!! Disgusting... The worse thing is i accidentally crush it!! my PALM!!!! It's so disgusting.. Feel like vomiting!!! iT's 1000000% disgusting!!!!! I don't know how it got onto my palm.. as i'm carrying my file, which it's impossible to land on my palm unless it flew..... OMG!!! It's like so embarrassing when i'm in the bus.. The smell is really that strong that the auntie sitting beside me smells it.... OMg!!! What a idiot day!! Beside that stupid smelly bug that "rot" my day, my eye also swollen... haiz... Maybe the poisonous gas by the solder iron went into my body, that cause my eye swollen.... Haiz.....

WHAT A STUPID DAY!!!!

2006-11-06T22:23:00.000+08:00

__Feel so Lousy, Simply LOUSY!!___

Go to school as usual today... Haiz... I think i have no more mood to study anymore. I just could not think and absorb what i had learn all this while... Sad... Suddenly, I'm feel so useless. Like today, we got programming lab test. I just could not think how to write on the code.. I'm just copied from here to there... Such a failure... Also, when we were discussing about the innovative proj just now, i could not help to think of the solution.. I did not do anything much.. I feel so guilty... Stupid June!! My eyes could actually feel so uncomfortable when looking at people for too long.. The feeling is like looking into the checked shirt for too long and cause giddiness.... Haiz... Maybe i'm just too unable to associate and chat with people... How will my future be?? I don't my future to be 'destroy' by my stupid attitude.............................

Maybe, i don't have brain at all... Then, what am i?? Haiz.. What will happen if i go to work next time? Nobody will employ me. I'm too dependent on other people... I don't have my own thoughts and views.. I'm just following what other people said.. I want to change, but i don't know how to start changing... haiz.... Go and Die la June!! Idiot!!

Overall, i feel so tired and useless today(or even everday).. Maybe i have not been sleeping early for days?? Haiz... Shall end here le... I should sleep early today... Good Nite!!

2006-11-05T21:46:00.000+08:00

A 5 years old boy is in love with a 17 years old girl.

Yesterday, Jo and Si came to my house to study Maths. I'm sorry that i can't help much... Sorry...

They are so blur! I stayed at 6 storey and they went to 5 storey, knocking at my neighbour's door. They were so lucky that nobody was at home... Otherwise they might be so embarrassed. haha...

To SI and JO;
Remember.. I stay at 6 storey, and not 5:) haha..

They came at around 4pm. Then we went to market to eat lunch before we study...

Jo was so bad.. She bullied my doggie:( She "RAPED" him by taking off his shirt and use it to cover its eyes:(

Around evening, my nephew(jian an) came... He's in love with si.. He even called Si as Mei Mei(puke:D) Keep pestering her while she's eating.. And doing things that attract her attention... I and Jo was laughing like hell.. haha..
Eh, Si, accept him la.. Since he 'loves' you so much.. haha...

After eating and laughing, we went back to my room and study.. We are so tired by then... Forced ourselves to wake up... Too bad.. we can't.. so at around 12am, Jo and Si went home....

PS: Si and Jo, Jia you!! don't give yourself too much stress... you can make it de... Jia you.....

2006-11-05T21:17:00.000+08:00

Link on effects of drinking coffee.

Just found this webbie. Let those who drank coffee everyday knows about it.
http://www.mcvitamins.com/Health%20Opponents/Coffee.htm

2006-11-05T21:11:00.000+08:00

OH NO!!

Eh, just realize that I have not study my programming techniques. Oh no… i don’t have the C# software. My computer can’t save it. Haiz.. tomorrow die…

2006-11-05T21:03:00.000+08:00

++.... BLOATED..++

We just came back from Allson Hotel (celebrate xiao huai dan birthday which is in 7/11/2006). I guess I don’t need to “jian fei” already. Cos’ i ate too much le, especially all those fattening food.
Let me recall what I ate today….
Morning- Chu chang fen, yam cake, roasted meat.
Afternoon to evening(buffet at Allson Hotel)- 2 cups of ice-cream(chocolate, peppermint, durian), cakes( 2 mini éclair, 1 mini mango cake, 1 mini brownies, 1 mini chocolate cake), 2 plates of main course( bee hoon, black pepper chicken & mussels(*yummy) , sweet and sour fish, vegetables) , 2 plates of salad( thousand island sauce, tomatoes, potatoes, corn, long beans)

OMG!!! So fattening!! FAT!! But, it’s ok, Once in a while. Tomorrow then I “jian fei”. Haha.

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++… TODAY’S CELEBRATION …++

Set off and head towards hotel at 12pm. First, we stop at toa pa yoh, to fetch 2 of my eldest nephew and niece, ah Wei and ah feng. Then continue our journey to hotel.
Reach there about 1 something and everybody couldn’t recognize me!! Haha. All of them said I’m prettier!! Yea... *puke*(I don’t agree with them of course, I’m “zi4 zi1 zi1 ming2” de hor:p) and I stole baby’s limelight. Everybody was finding me to see my changes. Haha. I’m the main character of this party. Haha.

And my 2nd auntie embarrassed me in front of my cousin! She said “June ar, Ni jing tian hen mei lei (me: puke). Rang wo bu ting de xiang kan ni lei (me:puke). Ke yi xuan nan pen you le hor. Xuan Anthony (her eldest son) kor kor la. Haha”
kaoz! How can she say this? I’ll feel so embarrassing! Especially both of them (auntie and her husband) really got the plan to match me up with my cousin. Ya, my cousin is a good person. But I won’t want to have such complicated thing. Kaoz… OMG OMG OMG….

After that, I started eating and chatting. It’s time to sing birthday song and cut cake @ 3.30pm. During this period, it was like so “leng chang”. Almost everybody was eating and chatting while birthday song was played. My sis was like so “gan ga”!! She was standing in the middle, carrying baby, while the staff played the birthday song. The scenario was like my sis was celebrating baby’s birthday alone, no other people beside her! The kids were watching how my sis blows the candle. OMG! So incorporative sia. I wanted to go and stand beside her and help her to make the place livelier but, I’ve no guts to go forward. So “mei you yong de”. That’s what about most of the Singaporean. We don’t take the initiative to do something. Haiz. “Ke lian” de baby, sis, and bro-in-law. Their plan to celebrate baby birthday was failed. I also “ke lian” my bro. he was unable to attend today’s celebration cos’ he need to fly to Australia for re-service. Sad. Miss my bro a lot.

After that, cakes were distributed to us. It’s chocolate mousse. It’s yummy!! I love it.

After that, we (my cousins, ah Wei and me) chatted. We were shocked by ah Wei. He’s only primary 6, and till now, he stead 3 times le. So pro! And, to us it’s too young. He even said that his currently stead is his true love. OMG!! How can he determine who is his true love at this age. Haiz. Kids nowadays are so weird. Can say that we (my cousin and I) were too conservative ba. Haiz. He’s only 12, got 3 stead. I? ->0. Lose to a young kid. Failure! But, I don’t care. “Wo bu xi han!” Maybe I can break the record in my family? Haha.

2006-11-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

__Just a post__

Just listened to music while doing innovative project. And, I’m listening to a jap song. It’s nice. It’s soundtrack of a show “ye man shi jie”. A very sad love story. And the song title is "TEARS". I’m finding the lyrics of this song. But I only found the chorus of the song. The chorus is:
“lonliness, your silent whisper, fill the river of tears through the night, memory, you never let
me cry, and you never said goodbye, sometimes our tears blinded the love, we lost dreams along
the way, but i never thought you trade your soul to the fates, never thought, you leave me alone,
time through the way had set me free, sands of time will keep your memory, love everlasting
fades away, alive within your beatless heart, dry your tears, with Love”

It’s a real nice show and song. Watch or listen it when you are free:)

2006-11-03T23:08:00.000+08:00

___GOOD NEWS___

Mum is alright. After the scanning and taking blood test, the doctor confirmed that mum did not have stroke. The doctor did not specify what causes mum to be so weak. And can be discharged tomorrow. Although it’s not stroke, the doctor advised mum to take care and not to treat it as it did not happened or will not happen. As the risk of it reoccurring is possible. Thanks god.

2006-11-02T20:35:00.000+08:00

__WISH MUMMY IS ALRIGHT___

Today is another unhappy day for me. My mum was admitted to hospital. It was her second stay in TTSH within 3 years. The doctor confirmed that my mum got a mild stroke, and she is needed to stay in hospital for further observation for 1 week.
She’s so weak today that she does not have the strength to walk on herself (according to my sis). The doctor has done a simple test on her which make him/her confirmed that my mum had a stroke yesterday.

__UNFORGETTABLE INCIDENT__
Her last stay in TTSH was due to the blockage of her arteries. She was supposed to do ballooning (which can expand her arteries, allowing the blood flow smoothly, to avoid heart attack). But, she did not want to have the operation as she wanted to take care of my baby nephew. Also, she hoped that she could be cure without operation. And, indeed, her arteries are quite cleared after taking medicines.

This was what it happened few years ago which let us know that she got heart disease.
We were having dinner (jiat tok) at a place near the temple. While we were “yam-say-ing”, my mum fainted suddenly which really scared me. It’s lucky that my brother was sitting beside her and managed to hold her to sit on the chair. She fainted. I was so scared and afraid that something was happening to her. I almost cried. I was so panicked that I tremble and my fingers were icy cold. My dad’s friend, who was a gi dong (who is a person that god go into his body), went in to the temple and took some incense powder (which believer believe that it can protect us from harm) for my mum to drink. While he was taking it, my bro’s girlfriend (Jiex2) took medical oil and helped my mum massage so that she’ll feel better. And there’s an auntie keep instructed and helped jiex2 to massage my mum’s hand and head. I was so stressed that my mum can’t stand the noise( which she will be more dizzy) and I shouted “keep quiet! Mummy hate noisiness!” and I ran away with my tears flowing out. Though I know that that auntie mean good, but I can’t stand someone doing something that mummy don’t like at that time. I called my sister, crying and saying that mum fainted. I just couldn’t stop crying. And my sis didn’t understand what I was talking about. She only knew something happened.
After few minutes, they (my bro, jiex2, dad’s friends, my uncle, cousin) found that I’m missing and looked for me. My cousin and dad’s friend found me. They told me that mum was alright and they are heading home. I didn’t listen to him and I’m jumping, crying and scolding that they bluffed me. Then, my dad’s friend shouted at me that mum was alright and we should go home immediately. Only then, I understood what was him talking about and followed them home.

I still could not stop crying, just walked alone and listened to disc-man with full blasted. I just hoped that it’ll calm me down. We had reached home. I quarreled with my brother. We shouted one another fiercely. And again, my dad’s friend stopped us. I ran out of my house, sat at the staircase. My cousin followed me. He consoled me. Told me that mum was alright and don’t worry anymore. Ya, I knew that mum was alright. But, I just couldn’t stop crying. Once I cried seriously, I need at least half an hour to stop. Half an hour later, I stopped crying and went back home. My godfather (dua ya pek, a god that went into my dad’s friend body) came (last time my house is sort of temple where god will come every week to solve mortal problems). He asked for me, also consoled me not to cry. He told me to tell him what happened to me. I couldn’t tell. Cos, I’m still could not stopped crying. He also told me that my mum is alright. I’m convinced. After that I apologized to my bro, and my bro apologized to me too.

Next day, my sis brought mum to TTSH for check up. And doctor asked mum to stay for observation. And this is how we know she got heart disease. That few days of her stay in hospital, I was like ‘wu jia ke gui’ stay at jiex2 place, sis place, slept alone at home for some days (my dad was working overnight during that period). Rush to hospital after school. Stay at hospital till night, when sis fetches me home. These were how I led when mum was hospitalized that time. Feel so worried, homeless and tired. I’ll never forget this incident.

And again, she’s hospitalized now. I’m again, so worried. Can this be the last stay? I don’t want anything to happen to her again. She’ll be very tired and painful de. No please. Illnesses please leave my mummy alone. Don’t find her again. Don’t let her suffer please. I beg you!!

2006-11-01T22:56:00.000+08:00

___A GOOD AS WELL AS A BAD DAY___

Today shall be a short post as I am very tired now. After this posting, I’ll jump into my bed and sleep: )

You know who I saw today? I saw HIM! He was walking in front of me. Then I noticed something that made me quite happy. He wore the watch that I’ve given him on his birthday (which was last week). At least, I get to know that he did not throw the present that I’ve given him. And make me feel that everything is worth it.
The watch really suit him a lot. Although the design was simple, and quite ugly, but at least, he didn’t throw it away. I do hope that he’ll like that watch…

Today is not a good day for me after all, though I’ve saw him. Cos’ my mum fall sick, it’s quite serious.

The doctor suspect that it’s stroke(tomorrow will know the real thing after the scanning).
I’m so worried about her. I don’t want anything to happen to her. If something happen to her, what should I do? I love my mummy more than anyone else. I really hope that it’s not stroke. I don’t want her to suffer from any Illness. I just don’t want it to happen. Otherwise, I’ll hate myself for life( shall elaborate why she’s so weak next time).

I shall end my post here first. Will continue tomorrow… Zzzzz.. so tired to think more things le. Still need to complete maths tutorial for tomorrow.

2006-10-31T20:49:00.000+08:00

____A NORMAL DAY____

Yeah. Finally I got real player… haha. Can watch 1 littoru no namida this few days if I’m free:) And to check if I can cry while watching this touching show.

Today is so weird. I saw 2 of my primary school classmate(which I’ve seldom see), one is when I’m on the way to school, another is when I’m on the way home. Both of them didn’t seem to recognize who I am. Maybe got my hair colored? But my face is still the same what. Haiz. Whatever. I also not very close to them anyway:)

We got the components for DE project today. Haiz another project to work on which means another busy semester. Hopefully I can finish this DE project by this week. Otherwise there’ll be more and more project coming on, and more stressful.

Another day passed in school (but mic is so 'kelian', being ‘suan’ by two bad person:P). Took bus home with mic. And I called back home to check if there’s dinner. Then my mum ask me what time will I be home(as usual). And this is how we end our conversation.(but not the complete one)
………
MUM: Ni ji dian dao jia?(what time will you be back home?)
Me : da gai qi dian duo(about 7 ++)
MUM: ok. “ji de hui lai huh”( “remember to come back”)
When my mum say this, I was like “huh, I’ll be back what. Why must I remember to be back?” So I ask my mum why should I remember to be back? I’ll go home anyway? Why ask this question? Ooo… My mum was not reminding me to go back home. She’s saying: “zhi jie hui lai(come back home straight)” Omg. What am I listening? How can I mistook that “come back home straight” to “remember to come back”? Hilarious. Even mic can’t stop laughing about what I’ve listened. Haiz. Maybe I need to have a brain scanning. Cos I think I can’t understand what other people is talking about. Or, maybe is the speaker got problem, cannot send the correct signal to me. Haiz.

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___ABOUT XIAO HUAI DAN___

Xiao huai dan got bruise on his forehead le!! Omg. He’s like “Luo han yu”, got a small bump and bruise on his forehead. You know why? He’s so playful. Climb up and down everyday, every minute(except sleeping only). And finally, he falls and knocks his forehead. He’s not afraid of falling and ‘banging’ his head onto the something. Now he got 2 bruises. One is near his eye corner, another one is on his forehead. He got 2 ‘presents’ for his playfulness. Hope he’ll ‘repent’. Haha..
It’s really very happy to have him at home to play with us. Haha. He can make you laugh, angry and feel warm. Although he always quarrel with me, I still like him a lot. It’s like there’ll no trouble or stress with his presence. Play with him can kill your boredom, forget your unhappiness etc..
He loves to smile, which his smile can make me love him more. :D
Just now, I was playing with him. I use my mouth to take away his pacifier. And he can laugh until so sweet. Haha. Really enjoy playing with him. It is so fun. He learn things very fast that sometimes he imitate what you have just done. Haha. There’s a lot a lot more about him that really difficult describe in words. You can only see it for yourself. Haha.

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____MY SERVING FOR TODAY____

I must keep track of my diet from now on le. Otherwise will grow fatter and fatter. I don’t want! So, I must follow how many serving of food should I have everyday. My sis ‘inspire’ me to slim down de:) cos she went Cenosis for slimming session and within 1 day, her tummy was smaller by half!(she gave birth before hence she got big tummy) so I must follow the standard serving size of food group and try to exercise from now on.

Today, I’ve consume:
Rice & alternative:
2 slices of toast -> 1 serving
1 hotdog bun -> 1 serving
Rice(1 small bowl) -> 2 serving
Total=4 serving out of 3 serving a day(Omg. Too much!!)
Meat & alternative:
1 Hotdog(from hotdog bun) àshould consider as 1 serving
1 / 2 spoonful of mince pork à less than 1 serving
Total= less than 2 serving out of 2 serving per day(hmmm.. good.. but
low protein:( )

No fruits for today(hmm… must remember to eat 2 serving of fruits from
tomorrow onwards)

Vegetables :
1 tomato(yummy), and abit of cucumber -> less than 1 serving.(must eat more
vegetable also)

And 1 cup of peppermint tea..

Hmmm… must reflect. Try to eat better from tomorrow onwards:)

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____MY HAIR____

Sad.. my hair colour drop le!! It change from magenta red(which I call it purple) to brown(cos’ I didn’t use colored shampoo). Sad! I want my purple colour hair back! And the bleach area also got changes. It look like grey hair to me. That stupid auntie. Put so much bleach solution which really bleached my hair…. Sad, my hair spoilt le la… I want my healthy hair back!! I don’t want my hair to look like grey hair… sob sob sob… My Hair~~~

2006-10-27T20:23:00.000+08:00

Skipped lesson for Lunch

We are so naughty today! Skip 1009 and eat at Seoul Garden! Initially we just wan to eat lunch at Ang Mo Kio during the 2 hrs break and go back school within 1hr. Since we choose to eat at Seoul Garden, might as well skip the lesson: p

Omg, I think I’m 1 or 2 kg fatter… Die le… I don’t think I’ll slim down le. I carry on eating even though I was damn full. I ate spaghetti (not nice de. Lucky I took a little bit), chicken, fried wanton, fried spring rolls, ice-cream, dessert. Die le la…. So many calories and fats are in my body. And, I embarrassed myself for being so desperate to take other flavor of ice-cream. Those tubs of ice-cream are not supposed to take de. I don’t know about it and choose to force open the cover of ice-cream. Then, the staff there came out and said that those tub of ice-cream are not for the lunch. Uh-oh. I feel so embarrassed. It’s seemed that I’m so greedy. I’m not! I just want to eat my chocolate ice-cream. Haiz. Sad. My chocolate ice-cream~….

Then we eat, chat and play game. Also, a ‘match making’ session was ‘organized’ suddenly.
Match-maker->Guo Jie.
The two ‘victims’->yx and ali
Ke lian de ali… She was pestered by GJ to go on date with yx. Haha... gj is so weird. Why he didn’t intro himself to yx. They are so compatible! I and mic share the same thought. Haha.

After that we went home. Then I saw a baby was sitting quietly on the pram. Just then, I miss ‘xiao huai dan (my baby nephew)’. He is so naughty. And he do things that really make you wanna bang your head against the wall. Haha. For example just now, he was like dancing pole dance lor. He wants to cross over the barrier in front of him. In order for him to cross over, he must hold onto something before he could fall. Then, he crosses over. The barrier is so tall that make him almost trip over. Lucky, he could grip tight onto the pole and turn around (he has good stamina. he train his arm everyday de). And he clapped and was so happy that he almost falls. Omg. What kind of nephew I have. But without him, my house might not be so lively. Thanks to him. Haha. Thank him for letting us for having a chance to bang our head against the wall... haha….

2006-10-26T20:18:00.000+08:00

I love THE GUARDIAN

Jap langauge is fun! But i have to memorise all the character. haiz.. It's a big disadvantage for me to learn it. Because my brain has stop 'working' and turn rusty ever since 'O' level. How am i going to remember everything. Maybe it's time to 'repair' my brain and force it to work real hard(though i think it's impossible).

After that, it's 1008. The lesson is at ELP.. Sad to say that i really hate that place. It's so cold that we could not stop trembling! So i walk outside and warm myself. Outside ELP, i recall everything that happen yesterday. I just can't help myself to feel sad. Feel like crying, letting my tears flow, but i hold back.

After school, we went to j8 and watch movie. On the way, mic and i chatted about growing process. We both agree that it's very torturing to grow up. I can't stand the stress that i'm facing and hoping that i can run away from it. I even thought of giving away the rest of my lifespan to people who wants to live longer. But i can leave only when i've fulfiled all my dreams. I really thought of it many times.Haiz. Sometimes i wonder what do i live for. I cannot contribute anything. I don't know how to share my feeling. I'm not daring enough to try anything. I'm just like an empty shell/walking zombie.

THE GUARDIAN is the best movie i've seen. The story is so meaningful that really let make me learn alot. It's a very sad story. I feel sad, but i didn't express it. mic they all cried and i, concentrated and watch the movie. A sad story that make people cry but not me. Maybe it's our family 'de' characteristic. We do not really know how to express our feeling. Always keep things inside our heart. Especially me.Whenever i feel touble or sad, i just want to stay quiet and be alone. Because, sometime, if i talk to anyone i may cry until 'xi li hua la'(those who have seen me cry before will know).

Back to the movie... Almost the whole movie is the climax. It can't make you stop feeling nervous, sad, happy etc...I like the last part most when Randall gave up his life to save Goldfish back to the helicopter. Because due to some friction and the total weight of the both of them, the rope will break soon. To reduce the speed of the rope to break, Randall released himself and let himself fall back to the deep blue sea. This part make me feel that there's seldom a person who is willing to sacifice themselves to help/save others.Only Randall does that. So, i recommend that this movie is a MUST WATCH show. THE GUARDIAN, i love it...

2006-10-25T17:09:00.000+08:00

HAPPY OR SAD??

Today(before 11.30pm) i was very happy... Keep smiling.. All i can say is, i'm very very happy today..

First lesson for today is engineering drawing.I'm lucky that that fierce fierce teacher didn't scold me(Cos i'm wearing slipper:P). I love this module!Because it's like dnt.. draw and draw... hehe....

Then after ENGDRW, is digital electronics. The lesson start at 10.10am.. As the time passes, i'm getting more and more nervous... Don't know why am i still feeling that nervous.. haiz...

Supposingly, i must go and meet him at 11. However, i can't leave the class yet as teacher is teaching an important thing... So i sms him and apologise that i'll be late. And inform him that we change our meeting time to 11.30 instead.. and this is how he reply:Ok... U done msg mi.

Maybe to alot of people, this reply is nothing... But to me, it make me confirm that he is a real good guy. And of course i feel very happy.
However, this feeling is very 'short term'.

11.30, lesson ended. i message him that my lesson le..

So, with the company of mic, i waited for him outside elp. After a few minutes, he appear with his buddy. He walk towards me and i pass him the present...
Of course, he did say thank you.. But he also say something. He said," Ni yi hou bu yong zai mai le(Don't need to buy next time)". And he left... sad...I don't even have the chance to say anything.. It's like only about 5 seconds for everything to happen. I don't even have the opportunity to even say a word and he left... All i can see is his backview.

At that very moment, i was so stunned. Why did he say that?
So i think and think.. I think i know the reason. He might be implying that i should give up.. Maybe he got gf, and don't wish me to keep bothering him.

Ya, i should give up. It's easier to say than done ok. If i can give up, i'll done it long long ago.. And there's no need for you to remind me today at all....You cannot stop me from loving you.. It's uncontrollable one ok... haiz... I'm such an idiot...

After that i follow mic they all to FJ for lunch. Then, mic ask me, "Ni shi bu shi hen zai yi ta shuo de hua?" My answer is no... I was only thinking that it's really impossible for me to give up. Not easy at all... Of course i did feel very sad. But it's natural one right. haiz.... Who ask me to be so devoted. But it's not my fault. it's my feeling don't allow me to give up.Haiz... sob sob...

Hopefully that i can really give up of him by next year... Possible?? haiz.....

2006-10-25T01:07:00.000+08:00

APOLOGISE

If anyone of you do not understand what i'm writing, sorry.. cos' my ability of expressing myself is very bad and most importantly, my english is very poor.. so try to forgive me... but don't worry. i'll try my best to improve all these in the further post.. :)

2006-10-24T23:49:00.000+08:00

Something related to HIM

On 22/10/2006,
Went to Bukit Panjang plaza with mummy.
PURPOSE: to find HIS birthday present for the next day.
Walk around the plaza for an hour+, but can't find jacket( which i plan to buy a white jacket for him)that really suit him.And finally, found a stall that sell watches. Then i look around.... At last, there's a nicest one among all. After much consideration, i bought it..
COST: $32
DESCRIPTION ON THE WATCH: Digital, black rubber strap, simple design.
RESPONDS:Mummy says the cost of the present for friend is too expensive.(i didn't tell her it's for a guy i like. i lie to her that it's for a 'tom-boyish' friend). Friends also say too expensive le.
However, for me, it consider average(although i feel pain spending so much on it). Why? i've even bought a $50 jersey for him before lor...Haiz... All i can say is i'm silly, foolish and idiot. But what can i do? This is not this first time that i'm that silly. It has been 4 yrs already. so what can i do? haiz...

On 23/10/2006,
Happy Birthday to you.....
Today is his birthday. And i have not send him any of my wishes. cos' i don't have his number and i cannot go online as my com got problem.
So how?? Have to wait and see if i can meet him in school.
You Know what i do? i keep looking around the canteen while eating just to look for him. Thanks to mic helping me to look for him. But, too bad. he's not in school. According to his friend, HE went to learn bike! COOL! But at the same time feel sad. cos' i cant wish him happy birthday on the day. haiz. no choice. have to wait another day to pass him the present..

Today
Fix my com once i reach home..... And..... YEAH!!! Finally it's fixed.. So i quickly online hoping to see HIM. And indeed, my wish came true.. haha.. he's online...
so i faster go and chat with him.. (too bad our conversation is not save. haiz.. sad.. cos i can't 'keep' my 'courage'..hehe....).
While chatting with him, i feel so so so scare.. i scare that he won't reply me. but luckily, he did. And i feel so nervous that my face is so hot, my hand is so cold and my heart is thumping very hard(So drama and yet, it did happen to me!)....
i also took the daring to ask for his number in case i can't show up... and surprisingly, he did give it to me..
IN CONCLUSION,
i'm meeting him tomorrow at 11pm(he decide de) outside ELP(i decide de).
So nervous...